"I am just a women trying to make since of this crazy world and stand for Christ. I have several character flaws but realize that I can't change without Christ. I make mistakes and I have failed at a lot of things but I learn from them and press on!"
This is what I said in my "about me" tab. As I read back over that page I was overcome by all sorts of emotions. One, because I realize that my heart was sincere at that point. But, Two...this is one of the hardest times in my life and I realize that I am called to press on. Yes, this world is crazy! But, I am called to live out the gospel in every area of my life on matter the circumstances.
Have you ever cried out to God and said something like this?..."Have I not hurt enough already? Why this hurt too?"
Well, that is right where I am!
But I can say that in the midst of great pain, God shows up in the most wonderful ways! He gives me peace and rest that is unexplainable. He gives me support and sustenance. He gives me wisdom to walk this out. It is only by HIS grace that I am able to stand each day and say, "today will be another day that I show Christ to the world, no matter how hard it is!"
You know when we are hurting, and especially when we feel we deserve something better, we become bitter and our hearts become hardened. Then we are unable to have the character and qualities of Christ. It is hard to be loving and forgiving when you feel you got the raw end of the deal. I want to say, "BUT GOD..."
But what the Holy Spirit has been revealing to me is....no matter how hurt I am, I must keep my eyes on the Lord and allow Him to show me TRUTH so that I can walk in a manner worthy of His calling!!
Ultimately I want God to get all the glory in every situation! It is HIS to have. He is the only one worthy!
But in order for HIM to get the glory, I must align my thoughts and my heart with His. Only when I am aligned with Him will I ever experience true healing and a heart that becomes more like His!
So yes,..."I am just a women trying to make since of this crazy world and stand for Christ. I have several character flaws but realize that I can't change without Christ. I make mistakes and I have failed at a lot of things but I learn from them and press on!"
May I press on even in this!
~kerry
